Cheap Honesty

"WHAT CAN I DO WITH CHEAP HONESTY

YOU'RE GIVING ME MORE THAN I CAN SEE

BUT I'M TOO COOL TO SAY THAT I WANT IT ALL MY WAY

GET BLASTED BY THIS SINCERITY"

What's better, the friend who tells you the way it is whether it's what you wanna hear or not or the friend that sugar coats everything to make life a little easier for you?

I've been thinking about this alot today after being refered to by someone as "honest but very very very harsh".
My biggest problem has always been my honesty. If I'm upset or hurt or pissed off or angry my face refuses to lie even if my brain really wants me to. Maybe sometimes it's not a bad thing but it has got me into alot of trouble over the years.

"I KNOW TOO WELL I KNOW THESE LINES

I'VE SEEN THEM SMOTHERED IN SLEEK RIDICULE

A SEEDY SMILE THEY THINK THEY'VE SCORED

BUT I KNOW MORNING COMES AND I'M

ALONE AGAIN, TOO ALONE AGAIN"

So here I sit at the computer, trying to revise but unable to concentrate. Sometimes I feel so alone, alot has changed this past year and I can't help but think I'm to blame for most of it. I have distanced myself from my best friend possibly out of jealousy, mainly out of stupidity, and I miss him. Most of this has come about because maybe I am too honest, maybe sometimes it is better to be more diplomatic, life would certainly be easier.
From my experience the liars and sugar-coaters seem better thought of and in a world full of falseness I stick out like the proverbial sore thumb...

"SO WHAT CAN I DO WITH CHEAP HONESTY

YOU'RE GIVING ME MORE THAN I CAN SEE

BUT I'M TOO COOL TO SAY THAT I WANT IT ALL MY WAY

GET BLASTED BY THIS SINCERITY

I WISH I HAD THE STREETS FULL VIEW

THESE PEOPLE SCREAMING THROUGH THEIR SETTLED LOVES

SO I PRETEND SO MELLOWED OUT TOO TEASING

WEAK ENOUGH TO LONG FOR HOME AGAIN

LOVELY HOME AGAIN"