I find myself in the midst of big change, not only in my personal life but also in the political world as well.
I will only briefly mention politics as I know it's a hot bed for argument at the moment but I want to say I admire Gordon Brown and the Labour party and feel sad that 13 years of Labour power has come to an end. I don't think Brown is charismatic like Clegg or even Cameron (is that charisma or bullshit arrogance?) and neither do I think he is a particularly nice person BUT I do think he was the right person to get us out of the mess we are in, the mess I must add is not all Labours fault, it's ours, the British public for being greedy and money hungry running up debts on credit cards we can't afford, taking out 120 % mortgages we can't afford and then wondering why the country has gone down the shitter. I'm not sitting here pretending I'm excluded from this, I have had terrible debt in the past that I have worked hard to clear. OK OK so the banks should not have been so frivolous, yes they should have had tighter restrictions but I think we are fooling ourselves into thinking this is Labours fault, this was a world wide recession and it would have happened whoever was in power. Personally, with his experience as a chancellor and balancing books, I feel Brown was best placed to deal with the economy and the debt and given a few more years we would be on the way to recovery, now I'm unsure where we go and what will happen under the rule of an Eaton toff with no political experience, I guess only time will tell...
In other news I'm now 30! Many people have been worried about this milestone in their life, I for one was not one of them. I am quite happy being 30, my life feels more settled and I am now in a good place emotionally.
I feel happy in a way that two or three years ago I would never have imagined possible. What has changed? Me I think more than anything! For so long I felt hard done to, unhappy with life and the way it was going, hung up on events from some six years ago that really just needed to be put to bed and dealt with. I couldn't see what a good thing I had, how good my life was and what amazing family I had so a bit before my 30th I had a good chat with myself (wrote a few blogs as well) and I realised how lucky I was.
It was then that I decided to ask Gavin to marry me, on our sixth anniversary in Manchester, our favourite city. It was hardly romantic, but then neither are we, but he said yes and I smile every day when I see him wearing his ring. I was never big on marriage, never really wanted to be a husband but then I guess I had never met the right person, till now.
Gavin is my best friend, my lover, my other half, my better half and when all else fails and when there is no one else around I know he is there for me and me for him.
I can't wait to get married and spend the rest of my life with the man I love and I'm happy to say, that for once in my life, the glass is half full NOT half empty!
We'll do it all
Everything
On our own
We don't need anything or anyone
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
I don't quite know
How to say How I feel
Those three words Are said too much
They're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace To remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
Chasing Cars, Snow Patrol
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